what i need to see - turning thirty-eight, part two


Later that day... As I was proofreading my last post before publishing, the italicized thesis spoke to me again.

If only you could see what I see.

It was Him saying it to me this time, on this day where I find myself barely hanging on. Again.

Again I am gasping for air, thirsty for identity, hungry for purpose and direction, yearning for security.

And it keeps coming back. If only you could see what I see.

  • You are My masterpiece (Ephesians 2:10)
  • How much I know you and I care for you (Matthew 10:30)
  • The entirety of My plan for your life (Jeremiah 29:11)
  • My plans for everyone else and the role I want you to play in them (so get over yourself already because we have work to do) (Philippians 2:3-4)

Okay, I added that last part but I don't blame Him if that's how How he feels.

In Janine Turner’s testimony she talks about seeing her life in threads while God sees the whole tapestry.  When I lament over how dull or short my thread is, I forget that I’m not alone and I have a specific place to be woven into God’s greater plan.

So my other wish. That I remember every morning to see myself, my life and my world through God’s eyes. To be patient with myself as He is patient with me.  And to place a higher urgency on having confidence in who He is, His power and who I am in Him so that I can get on with the business of being His hands and feet in my place on the tapestry.


Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us - Ephesians 3:20 NKJV