what i need to see - turning thirty-eight, part two

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Later that day... As I was proofreading my last post before publishing, the italicized thesis spoke to me again.

If only you could see what I see.

It was Him saying it to me this time, on this day where I find myself barely hanging on. Again.

Again I am gasping for air, thirsty for identity, hungry for purpose and direction, yearning for security.

And it keeps coming back. If only you could see what I see.

  • You are My masterpiece (Ephesians 2:10)
  • How much I know you and I care for you (Matthew 10:30)
  • The entirety of My plan for your life (Jeremiah 29:11)
  • My plans for everyone else and the role I want you to play in them (so get over yourself already because we have work to do) (Philippians 2:3-4)

Okay, I added that last part but I don't blame Him if that's how How he feels.

In Janine Turner’s testimony she talks about seeing her life in threads while God sees the whole tapestry.  When I lament over how dull or short my thread is, I forget that I’m not alone and I have a specific place to be woven into God’s greater plan.

So my other wish. That I remember every morning to see myself, my life and my world through God’s eyes. To be patient with myself as He is patient with me.  And to place a higher urgency on having confidence in who He is, His power and who I am in Him so that I can get on with the business of being His hands and feet in my place on the tapestry.

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Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us - Ephesians 3:20 NKJV