On my first morning back to work after Christmas, the freezing rain pecked at my face as I walked through crunchy new snow, reminding me every quarter-second that the dream of the unseasonably balmy weather going right into spring has died.
Only five days ago, on Christmas Eve, I was out for a run/jog, perhaps more of a jolly skip because its impossibility. I had to stop along the way to take this:
Another awesome jungle gym has been added to our neighbourhood. Even I am biting down hard in excitement to try the mini rock climbing contraption.
I can't, though, because there is a wire fence still surrounding it all. Something about it is not quite ready. I'm sure all the kids living in the homes along its perimeter are keeping a close daily watch on that fence, waiting for it to disappear and the fun to begin.
I thought about that fence that morning, wondering how this whole scene represents my life. But the fence isn't wire. It's taller and impenetrable, maybe made of brick. I can't see through to the playground. But it's there. I just need to get past the fence.
I can't believe we are at the end of 2015 already. The year really flew by and I am thankful for the whole thing. I read a lot of books, ran a lot, like I aimed to.
There were things, though, dreams, I was so excited about in the early months that wilted away because of my self-doubt and fear. I gave up because I couldn't imagine the likelihood of awesomeness on the other side of the fence.
I assigned Community as my word for 2016 several months ago, without too much woo-woo Holy Spirit consultation. But then a couple of weeks ago, in the same style that Open came to me for this year, He spoke to my heart with Pursue.
The coming year may get a little crazy, I suspect. I have a dog now, for goodness' sake, anything goes. Maybe it's because I'm turning 40 or maybe it's because I'm fed up with chickening out. But in 2016 I will trust God's promises more wholly and discover and enjoy the awesomeness on the other side of that fence.
And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Now to our God and Father be glory forever and ever. Amen. (Phils 4:19-20)