open letters - to my children #write31days

Good timing, today is our rescheduled homestudy appointment when the kids are supposed to be in the hot seat.  The perfect day to say some important things to them.


To my babies,

We are about to move into a new stage of this whole adoption thing, the waiting stage.  I know what you're thinking.  "You mean this wasn't the waiting stage?!"  Yup, this is actually the timeline that we know the least about.  How long will it take us to find our little guy?  I want to be the smart, comforting, super mom and tell you exactly how long this will take, but the truth is that I have no idea.  I know bits and pieces of how it's supposed to go, but I have also heard some dreadfully long horror stories.  The next couple months might give us a clearer picture of what to expect, and I promise that Daddy and I will paint as much of it as we can for you too.

In the meantime, I want to thank you for being so patient.  It has been almost three years since we began this journey together and it seems like there is so little to show for it.  Let me share with you, though, what I have seen:

I have seen big sisters maturing in their leadership roles.
I have seen a future big brother already making space for his roomie.
I have seen you all manage school and extra-curricular activities with great skill.
I have seen you each share yourselves with us, welcoming us into your world at a time when most kids don't even want to be within their parents' earshot.
I see all of us emerging from this first phase a stronger, deeper-rooted family than we could ever have been had we not accepted God's invitation to do this.

Since God has given us this time to further prepare ourselves, I want to ask you for a few things.

In the same faithful and protective way you call the little one "our child", I want you to start thinking that way about each other.  Be patient.  Choose mercy first.  Always consider the big picture and consequences of the words you say and the things you do.  You should be like this to everyone, but I want you to take advantage of the daily opportunities you have to practice these on each other.

God is unfolding this story for our family according to His own plan.  If we don't have our child in two years, it's not because you said something wrong today, or CAS thinks one of us is a disaster or that we are not worthy.  It's because it's not time yet and we have to trust God's timing.

Even though this adoption is one of the main things going on at home, remember that each of you always occupies a hugely important part of Daddy's and my hearts.  There will be times when this process and the little one will monopolize our attention, but I promise that you will never be far from our hearts or excluded from our thoughts and plans for this family.  But I will warn you now, I may fail you.  Many times.  I'm not perfect.  But I know Someone who is, and He will never fail you.  So always lean on Him first.  We will too.

I love you, my babies.

Love, Mommy:)

PS - don't forget to wash your lunch dishes